OUR FIRST DR. APPOINTMENT

Well I told you it may not be Monday that you get to see the post little one. I got out of work early to meet your mom for the appointment, let me tell you how AWKWARD it was being a man on Monday , walking into a obgyn office. Well I met the Dr with your mom, she has been going to him for awhile. I thought he was funny. He is kinda Brash but I liked it. He let us know the risks of losing you our little poppy seed at this time, the odds werent that great I told your mom that is other people not us.We will be fine. The Dr told us in the next week or so your heart will start beating and beating faster then our's do now, and when your heart starts beating our chances of losing you drop to 10 %. That will be great. Your mother has had blood drawn twice this week and is bruised up good. We are waiting to hear if the hGC levels in your mother are doubling like they are supposed to wich I hope they are, and believe me I couldnt explain to you what that is. Let me tell you now I have been trying to spring this on your grandfather and great grandma for christmas it is hard to keep this a secret I want them so badly to know. It will be 13 more days till they know. I have been getting the central air buttoned up for your mother this is just a project that was never finished and needs to before you get here. I also started ripping the doors down in your new room too I want you to have a cool nursery. So Ill let you go know Ill tell you more when I know more.................Dad

our future child

Well today your Mother and I got tell important people to us and hopefully important to you, about your pending arrival. We are both so very excited, I have wanted to be a Daddy for awhile now, your mother has had the itch to be a mommy since we got engaged. But I am very scared and I cant seem to figure out why? There are so many things I am wondering about, I cant even put my finger on it. I am nervous yet excited am I ready to be a Dad, YES. I know your mother is ready she is a natrual with babies. I know your grandmothers are freaking so excited. I hope your mom reliezes that I am excited about this major event, I just dont know what to say or do I am sort of lost. I am going to be a Dad, I will no longer be the son I am taking on a new role in the family. It means things are coming full circle I guess. I hope I can be the father you want the one I never had until I was adopted. I am going to try to keep writing until your born but it may not be frequent so please understand. I will try to keep your Big yellow brother Tucker ready for your arrival he is good with his foster brother Timber so lets hope he is as happy to see you too. I get to go with mom to her first prenatal Dr.s appt. I will write more then to you about it.....

not been felling so well

for like a week now I have been feeling off, you know your body you know when something is not right. I am your typical man i dont go to the Dr.s office till i have to or april makes me. Well the whole not feeling myself started last sunday so on wednesday when my manly parts started to feel pain I called the dr and went as soon as possible. I go and he checks me out and says I think you have a kidney stone take this med every 6 hours and if the symptoms dont go away call me and we will have you come back in oh and he made me pee in a cup. Fast forward to friday when I was feeling dizzy and nausea I called the dr and asked what did you find in my urine sample oh we were going to call you, mind you its almost 3 pm on friday they proceed to tell me that my urine told them my blood sugar was somewhere by 1000 when its supposed to be like 80 to 120 so they think i may be diabetic. And protein levels where high also. So I started thinking about this past week and day I had a cream cheese pastry at the office instantly felt nausea I thought it was cause I was hungry and i didnt have breakfast, So i started to go to my job site for the day and stoped and got 2 arizona ice tea the big sweet yummy ones and drank them by noon and still felt like crap went to lunch couldnt finish half of the green salad I bought. then find out what I already posted earlier about and started just drinking water and started feeling a little better and I have now stayed away from sugar for the night and feel so much better but Istill have to do something about this.

Boy April's meme really caused confusion

So this is to shed more light on me, or my past. My biological mother got pregnant with me when she was 15, gave birth to me like a month and half after she turned 16. I really believe that was a bad idea. You dont get to grow up the way every kid should. I was moved around alot as a kid, I have lived in Texas, Rhode Island, Connecticut, New Hampshire, Vermont, Florida, I believe that is all but it is hard to keep all the "FACTS" straight. The father I had known till I was like 6 or 7 was in the middle of trying to leave my mother and I wanted to stay with him and then my mother told me he wasnt my real father and that my real father's name is Frank and that is all she knows about him. He doesnt know about me ether..It is intriging to think about. I really dont dwell on it. But while my mother was with my so called father, she had a another two sons and a daughter in that short time frame. Well then I was sent to live with a aunt in Connecticut have you ever had the feeling you werent wanted that is how I felt, Well as soon as my mothers sister found out my mother was in New Hampshire I was packed up with the little bit of shit that I had at a age 7 oor 8 and deposited on my other aunts door step that my mother was staying with. My mother got her ass in line probably by the time I was 9 and I moved in with her at a apartment she got. I then met a guy she was going to marry and that is when I got sent to Florida to live with my mothers oldest sister all because she got arrested and was dealing drugs and the state of vermont was going to take me away from her. So Now Im living in Fla, with my 2 cousins and my aunt who is divorced, she met a guy that she worked with and ended up marrying him. My cousin is a year younger then me and just as big he always had a special learning problem. I think he wasnt wired right he always got into fights with teachers and students and this new husband of my aunts. Well one day I witnessed my new uncle choking my 12 year old cousin and I had to help this cousin. He was like my brother well we ended up kicking said new uncles ass and he told my aunt that it was me or him and I cant blame her for what she choose, but I was sent back to Connecticut to live my uncle and his wife the youndest of my moms siblings I had now lived with all the aunts and uncles I had lol. I ended up finshing Highschool and then got kicked out at 18 and that puts you to my 15 years meme.... Today I was going to tell you all about my asshole side but no you had to ask questions so you got this...

15 years

Like I can even accomplish this I can hardly keep current with normal blogging lol.

The year was 1993 I was junior in high school, I was living with a aunt and uncle that I no longer talk to. I worked with my uncle all school breaks and summers doing construction Im not talking little stuff ether I did the site work on propably 25 taco bells concrete sidewalks, foundations, footings, sewer and water,landscaping. You name I did it with my uncle. I made good money back then he would pay me 75 bucks a day not bad for a 11th grader. I was on the track team at school I was a popular kid who was friends with everyone even quiet geeks like my wife. although she is far from quiet or a geek now. I was the only one from my maternal family to ever graduate high school they are a bunch of losers. I was kicked out of said uncles house at the ripe age of 18 with the clothes on my back. And told i would never amount to anything and that I needed my uncle to be anything. BOY was he wrong. I made it just fine I was adult adopted by my adopted parents and have never looked back. I started a job in 1995 working for my adopted uncle at a lumber yard stacking wood to be kiln dried, then a friends father offered me a job being a helper for a sheetmetal company and I started that trade, I quit working for them and started for their competition and in 6 months started running my own jobs, after three or four years there I was feeling like I was in a dead end job so I saw a local oil company looking for a sheetmetal mechanic and I was hired there and told if i wanted to learn to be a oil burner tech they would pay for the schooling so I went then they sent me to school for a/c and then I quit haha I took that education and ran, actually they were bought out and the new owner was a and is a asshole. I was with them for like 3 or four years. So I went to work for a smaller oil company and a better one and they taught me alot I learned alot and stayed there for 3 years and got my cdl, I being thickheaded and stubborn got into a arguement with the owner over taking calls when I wasnt scheduled so I quit and went back to the first oil company I only lasted a year or so with them and got the best job in the world for me and have been there for a year now. I got married in that time to the woman of my dreams, And we are completely happy together. I think the next 15 years should cover all relationships....Now that would make great reading....

weekend overview

Well as you all know April and I went to Maine this weekend to be with our dear friends and their children, I also got to go to the nascar race on Sunday in New Hampshire. Let me tell you what the greates part of the race is for me it is when the National anthem is sung and the Fly over of our military planes. just so patriotic which I am. I will tell you one more thing that I love well two possibly I get goose bumbs during the GENTLEMAN START YOUR ENGINES. There is nothing like hearing (43) 800+ HORSEPOWER cars leaping to life. And then the sweet smell of sunoco racing fuel. Folks you cant get much more AMERICAN then that let me tell you. And the cheering for the military personell that was there for the colorgaurd breath taking. Well this is my catch up to to today post......

monday is almost over

Well today is almost over and Im happy about it. I am waiting patiently for April to get pregnant, I am so afraid of it yet want it...Make any sense? I doubt it. I am always like damn some months we can barly take care of our selves it seems. I mean I have heard tons of times you are never ready, but jeez I geuss it is just scary to think I will have to take care of a baby and it is not like our dogs who I can lock up in a crate when I had enough. I imagine April will have it worse then me but hey, It seems like everyone we know has a new baby or is pregnant. We are going to Maine this weekend wich is good I love to go up and see our extended family Carsa and Allen and the boys. I am also going with Allen to the NASCAR races in Loudon, NH.
The girls are going to have to stay home and be with the kids. I am hoping it doesnt rain tuesday I hate working in the rain it sucks I am the most miserable person when Im soaking wet. , I am getting herded into bed by April she always complains that I dont go to bed at the same time she does, I like to sleep in the same bed but as soon as I lay down I pass out it sucks. Hahaha I just realised that I have a fear of being miserable old man actually I think it is my new goal. For old age. Well Dan I saw your comment and had this in my draft I started it tonight before dinner and then we watched the MIST on on demand cool movie if you havent seen it Well Im out Im going to bed to keep poop head happy and to get the furry bastard off my pillow