Our Dr's Appointment

Wow is all I can say about the appointment we had today, Apes was told no more milk then usual and no more OJ then usual. What about calcium he says eat a tums lol. We got to see the baby again it is so amazing it blows my mind. The baby was moving all around then stopped like the baby knew we were watching it is so freaking cool. We saw the umbilical cord and the heartbeat again the arms and legs and the baby's head it was in 2 and 3d wich was cool. I am glad I have been going to these appointments there would be so much i would be missing if I didnt. wow this 9 months is going to take forever.

no flashy title today

Well April and I have had a fence that is 6 foot tall and about 75 feet long it has been falling down for a few years a giant eyesore, we finally decided to have it ripped down and contracted a fence company to put up a new fence. Well what a nightmare this has been I really thought I would like to look at the fence but I want to rip it down too, I called and complained to the fence company about how straight the fence was not and I then ran a string line from the begining of the fence to a spot where it had to be finshed and the estimator said no problem we will come back out and get the fence closer to the string line well the second trip out to re-do the fence straightened it in spots but they did not follow the fucking string line I am on the fence literally about ripping it down and putting it out at the road and telling them to come get it because trash pick up is on wednesday morning. I do not want them back here and I do not want to pay them the remaining 500 bucks they suck and cant put up a straight line of fence. I literally could have put up a better fence for half the money and it would be straight or I could use the excuse fuck it I do HVAC not fencing.....

I figured I should post something

Well your mom has a ticker that says 223 more days till your here, It seems like a damn eternity. I can't believe how cranky your mom is, I know she is goin through changes I think I have been on edge with her lately too. I keep thinking about everything we need to get done around the house. I am going to start peeling wall paper in the nursery and I wanna put down a laminate floor and replace one more door. The fence in the back yard was done today and the fence company doesnt put in straight runs of fence, so Im going to call them tomorrow and let them know its time to come back to straighten the fence at least the two sections that caught my eye. I have also been thinking of getting a second or third shift job to make ends meet. It really sucks being comfortable living a certain way then having to possibly lose a income for a while or get 1/2 of said income back. I dont know. What I do know is Im excited for the baby to come. I am also going to have to admitt as much as I read about fathers that are expecting wondering about their own mortality it has struck me once or twice that April and I are bringing a life into the world that I am going to be responsible for, for the rest of my life or till there 18 lol. Also am I healthy will I live long enough, god I hope nothing happens to me type of thoughts. Or You April. Well thats it for tonight this span'd over two nights so

Timber

Yesterday, Timber and I went to Fidelco for his puppy class. He missed his first play class due to a mutant straind of fleas, but we prevailed buddy all the bombing and bathing was worth it to see you with your litter mates and to do some obedience training. I was so proud of you, you did everything I asked and didnt whine and whimper. I hope you turn into a great guide dog.

Your 2nd Dr Appt

Well I met your mother at the the Dr's office waited a half hour and then we got into a room. I watched the screen to see if I could see your beating before the Dr pointed it out and zoomed in I was for a moment scared I didnt see it. Im a nervous nellie I geuss. The Dr says everything looks good I am so thankfull for that, Im still wondering wether or not your gonna be daddy's little girl or daddy's little boy. I just hope your healthy. And on a totally different subject we saw the girl that went in before us to the Dr she was only 17 and is 3 months pregnant. I was amazed it is scary for me let alone a baby having a baby. Jeez. Well more to come

OUR FIRST DR. APPOINTMENT

Well I told you it may not be Monday that you get to see the post little one. I got out of work early to meet your mom for the appointment, let me tell you how AWKWARD it was being a man on Monday , walking into a obgyn office. Well I met the Dr with your mom, she has been going to him for awhile. I thought he was funny. He is kinda Brash but I liked it. He let us know the risks of losing you our little poppy seed at this time, the odds werent that great I told your mom that is other people not us.We will be fine. The Dr told us in the next week or so your heart will start beating and beating faster then our's do now, and when your heart starts beating our chances of losing you drop to 10 %. That will be great. Your mother has had blood drawn twice this week and is bruised up good. We are waiting to hear if the hGC levels in your mother are doubling like they are supposed to wich I hope they are, and believe me I couldnt explain to you what that is. Let me tell you now I have been trying to spring this on your grandfather and great grandma for christmas it is hard to keep this a secret I want them so badly to know. It will be 13 more days till they know. I have been getting the central air buttoned up for your mother this is just a project that was never finished and needs to before you get here. I also started ripping the doors down in your new room too I want you to have a cool nursery. So Ill let you go know Ill tell you more when I know more.................Dad

our future child

Well today your Mother and I got tell important people to us and hopefully important to you, about your pending arrival. We are both so very excited, I have wanted to be a Daddy for awhile now, your mother has had the itch to be a mommy since we got engaged. But I am very scared and I cant seem to figure out why? There are so many things I am wondering about, I cant even put my finger on it. I am nervous yet excited am I ready to be a Dad, YES. I know your mother is ready she is a natrual with babies. I know your grandmothers are freaking so excited. I hope your mom reliezes that I am excited about this major event, I just dont know what to say or do I am sort of lost. I am going to be a Dad, I will no longer be the son I am taking on a new role in the family. It means things are coming full circle I guess. I hope I can be the father you want the one I never had until I was adopted. I am going to try to keep writing until your born but it may not be frequent so please understand. I will try to keep your Big yellow brother Tucker ready for your arrival he is good with his foster brother Timber so lets hope he is as happy to see you too. I get to go with mom to her first prenatal Dr.s appt. I will write more then to you about it.....