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I took a few days off from blogging to not seem like I am always bitching about things. On friday I got a call from a guy I went to school with whose father passed away unexpectedly. A massive heart attack one day after he got home from vacation . What a bummer . It also kinda scares me. I eat like shit for the most part April has gotten me on track, but I have a weakness for soda and sweets I mean who doesn't? But the only thing I can think of is this is like when I was 20 and lost a friend to drunk driving. You know how you had that invincible feeling when you were younger? I sure did until I had to cope with the loss of a friend. That really opened my eyes back then I still did a lot of stupid shit but hey. Alright maybe it opened my eyes for like 6 months and after the numbness wore off I was back to my antics. But Jeez I was like I want to be around for when my kids are growing up and to be with April. I should start walking more I have so much to live for. So I think I am going to try to be better about drinking water and maybe Ill walk my dogs one at a time of course ( I really HATE WALKING) but I can do all these things. Maybe April and I can get her a mountain bike since I have one that I hardly use. Jeez one thing makes you think so much...